LiveNutsBeNutsRegretNun

The things she do are not only beyond crazy but different. Dont get me wrong she is nice but when she wants to be. You see with my mother you have to do what she wants in order to have her happy. If not everything just seems to break apart. Now relationship wise; Those never really work for me. She manages to push every guy away from me. And she will make me feel terrible if she doesn’t succeed until I (get rid of them) so to speak. Does one’s love for their children go that far? Otherwise I would not and could not explain such control over the whole situation. I wish I could stand up to her but my respect I have grown up with is just… too much. If only ones eyes could be extended to see multiple colors instead of just one; that may being their favorite color off the color wheel. Hmm… How peculiar all this can be. Maybe one day she can see her flaw or one day I may understand her flaw… till them im just simply fucked.

1. Travel The World

2. See the Northern Lights

3. Get a tattoo

4. See someone famous

5. Talk to someone famous

6. Date someone famous

7. Take the “it” photograph

8. Walk for a cause

9. Run 10 miles

10. Save a life

11. be in a movie

12. be in a photoshoot

13. Get married

14. Have kids

15. Stand up to my mother

16. swim with a whale

17. drive the most exspensive car

18. be in the olympics

19. go to africa

20. write an article or book

 I wasnt always the outgoing type. Believe it or not I was the complete opposite. I used to be very fat with that afro frizzy hair and that looser in the corner that had no makeup on and dressed HORRIBLY. I didnt have friends until the end of freshman year. At that time I still had a lot to learn about people. Its different to observe them and then to. communicate with them lol. 

First Friend: Kayla Neighmeir

First True Boyfriend: Jesse Lawrence

First Crush: Travis Beek

First Kiss: Victor Frunza

First “Friend”: Marian Rosu

First Pot: Shhh

First Sister Like Relationship: Ellis Todd

First Girl Kiss: Rebekah Kerkstra

First Time Clubbing: 18 babe

First Time Drinking: 16

Last Time Drinking: 16

First Party: Senior Year Of High School

First Acceptence To College: GRCC

First Word: Gogo Gaga?

First Celeb Crush: Daniel Radcliffe 

First Play/Musical: Little Show of Horrors : ) Senior Year

First Church: Holy Trinity Greek Orthodox Church

First Camp: Vatra

….. This is my life so far in 4 years that I have been in high school. I went through many stages yet I feel like I have been excluded still from a lot of activities and memories that I could have had in high school. Do I regret some of these things… yes. Would I change them… No. I can only look back now on the years and pick out what I didnt like and change the next 4 years in college.